I don’t want to be an adult.
Not yet. I am not ready for it yet.
Adult seems to bear the connotations of responsibility and burden, that of disenchantment and cynicism. Being an adult seems like giving up the fun in life for arbitrary “adult duties”, a constant race to meet expectations that increase, by your family and society that look on with a critical eye. Trying to judge how you turn up. Shaking their heads at little mistakes you make.
Being an adult seems like a threat to freedom and free-spiritedness.
“You are an adult now.” has an ominous and foreboding undertone that beholds the wrath of expectations and the inevitability of disappointment. It suggests a decreased sense of forgiveness because you are expected to do the right things and considered a disappointment when you don’t.
It seems like adults are so busy meeting these responsibilities and requirements that they forget how to be happy at times, slogged down by the burden of work and their new found desires. It seems like adults are frequently stressed and seldom happy.
Being an adult isn’t a bad thing. It is a tiring thing.
Some people forget how to be a child when they are adult. They forget the beauty of simple things. Like sleeping in on a rainy day. Like the excitement of buying your favorite book. The accomplishment of cleaning out the toilet. The contentment of eating a favourite snack. The bliss in cuddling your loved one who loves you back.
“You are like a child.” seems to be a pejorative.
What is wrong with being a child? You are innocent. You believe in the good of the world. You believe in giving up that one ice cream cone to give the dollar to the man whom the adult rushed by in his hurry for his meeting. You see things in a positive light. You believe that whales and bears talk and that tooth fairies are real. You believe in being carefree and happy.
Come to the world of adults, you can keep your mindset as a child. But the exhaustion of trying to be upbeat may creep in. When it does, I hope we can still find the balance between responsibilities and freedom.